My 19th church birthday!

Hello friends! Its been a long time!

Going the Distance…

Today is my 19th birthday being a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Its been a long road yet successful and blessed. I have always said that I owe my life to the help and guidance of certain “angels” in my life and also the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I would not be here if it wasn’t for them or for the mercy of my Heavenly Father above.

These are some of my accomplish in the past 19 years…

  1. Won a Bronze Medal for the Los Angeles Region Occupational Program
  2. Certified in Wood Products Manufacturing for about 2 years
  3. Graduated high school with two medals (Bronze Medal of LAROP and Construction Academy Award)
  4. Survived a lot of hard times in my family (including raising myself for the most part)
  5. Did 6 months in Military Explores
  6. Attended  some college in California
  7. Did about a year and half of Women’s Self Defense class in College
  8. Served a mission in Minnesota, Minneapolis (Spanish)
  9. Regained my Spanish language and keeping it this time
  10. Did 6 months of Kung Fu/Karate (Purple Belt)
  11. Graduated from Institute of Religion (in 2 semesters)
  12. Got married in August 2011
  13. Got pregnant on the last day of our honeymoon ūüôā
  14. Currently 5 months pregnant, we are having a girl! (4 more months to go)
  15. First time Auntie to some good kids
  16. First time back in a Spanish Branch in a long time.

In short, I have been able to “go the distance” but I did not do it alone. The Lord sent me “angels” and guidance to help me along the way. Here’s a fav song that has always encouraged me…ENJOY!

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School!

When I woke up yesterday, I didn’t know what to except as I went to UVU for my appointment. I’ve been out of school for such a long time its¬†ridiculous! Finally I decided that there is no better time than now, since I got laid off…it was going to be now or never. As I spoke with the woman at school I explained my situation in detail so she would understand why I wanted resident tuition vs non-resident. I believe if it wasn’t for this one thing that I told her I would still not be in school but since I told her without hold back any information she made a few calls and to my surprise I am now a student at UVU. At the end of the process I was still in shock…now, a little but I’m in school and it feels great! I start in the fall and I will be studying Physical Therapy.

Why Physical Therapy? Well for starters my parents wanted me to go into the medical field, mainly because there will always be jobs available. I wanted to major in Business and Computers but since it will take a long time for my brain to catch up to speed, I decided to give this one a try and see if I do like it and invest it in my future as a career. Also because this is as close as I will go to be in the medical field. I hate needles and I really don’t like doctor’s¬†incompetence. So this is as far as I go. I think they will be pleased. I figure that I will always need therapy for my knees especially when I get¬†injured so if I can study this and actually work it on myself and find progress why can’t I help someone else and make the big bucks too? Its all part of my plan.

Its been a whole 24hrs and sometimes when I think about it I can’t help think what am I getting myself into? Even though its a lot to take in at the moment I still believe and feel that I have made the right choice. I have a theory about this. For a long time I’ve been wanting to get back into school and I have also been wanting to get married and start my family. There is nothing more sacred to me that family, everyone who knows me knows this to be true. So my theory is if I can get myself into school…I can almost guarantee myself that I will be married, eventually. I know that in school is where I will meet my future husband. So what am I waiting for? Let’s get cracking! I know it sounds silly but I believe in my theory and I believe it to be true as long as I stay true to myself and on the right path as always. I will see this through no matter how long it takes. Wish me luck ya’ll, I’m excited!

Avatar+Dream=Desire

During the Christmas Holiday a bunch of us from work who are my really cool friends went and saw “Avatar” at the IMAX¬†theater¬†in 3D. Let me just saw that it was flippin’ awesome! I loved it and I would see it again. Caution: If you read this and haven’t seen Avatar, its not my fault…I will be talking about it.

Ok so during the movie the main character had to gain the trust of the village people and be one of them. As he learned their ways he experienced many things, ie: the meaning of love, care for people he never had before, learned how to conquer his fear of a strange new place or I should probably say that he explored a whole new world. Fast forward…at the end of his training/graduation there was a ceremony where he became one of them…joined a family he never had before. But not just any family it was a whole new kind of¬†definition…at least the way I¬†interpret¬†the movie it was to me. They brought him the the center of the clan and as the Father and the Mother¬†accepted¬†him they put their hand on his shoulder and the rest of the clan followed suit. As the camera¬†paned¬†out you could see him in the very dead center of everyone and the whole entire clan had their arm on the person in front of them which ultimately lead to the center. Quite an amazing ceremony…he got a bigger reward than he ever expected. A family much more than he ever had.

I’m not going to lie, when I saw this I cried and it was so my wish to have a family just like that. To be in the center of a circle where everyone accepts you for who you were and called you as his/her brother or sister is a feeling that I¬†cherish the most in my heart above all…family comes first.¬†Since my direct family is so messed up, I make my own family. Thankfully thought I still have my direct sister whom I love dearly. And over the years my family has increased so much right before my very own eyes sometimes I have a hard time seeing that due to my¬†childhood. But I’ve got some news for you…I’ve got a bigger family now than when I started here on earth at birth and quite frankly I couldn’t have asked for a better family!

Now here’s my dream:

About two nights ago I was thinking about the future and¬†settling¬†down. Can you believe it me, a party animal settle down…if you ask me that’s a bit fishy! jk, no really I’m serious about it. Any who that night I dreamed about my husband and my children. It was such an amazing dream I love it so much I wished it was real. It was a simple dream, nothing fancy…just something sweet for the future to look forward to.

It took place in my back yard of my big house. (So far so good) My husband (to be) was playing with my (future) son throwing around the football. I was with my beautiful (future 3) girls on the swings, playing and laughing and smiling. As I looked around there was a picnic blanket with food not to far away and I could just feel the love. The love of my very own family that I created with my gorgeous handsome husband. The love that I felt from each of them was extraordinary! I was a mom to 4 kids and a wife to a husband who adore me, it felt good.

I woke up and I smiled. That’s basically set my entire day. I wasn’t sad or¬†disappointed¬†when I woke up to nothing…I had hope and love and compassion, and DESIRE that I will do what it takes to make that happen. I want that and I’ve considered to settle down and get serious about life but still have fun in a way where I can be that fun mom and amazing wife to my future family.

Am I ready to be a mom or a wife? I don’t know but I do know that there is only one way to find out…let’s go fishing!

Things that really matter…

…to me. This year for the month of November I was able to ponder just about every single day what I am thankful for or for whom. Since I’ve been home from my mission I’ve had nothing but countless blessings pour upon me…then after a while of free gifts(blessings) I learned that I needed to show Heavenly Father my gratitude…and so I am still trying too. I’ve had a new goal in these last couple of months to try and be positive about anything and everything. If I couldn’t then I would at least try to laugh it off, well let me tell you its been difficult but I haven’t given up yet. Since doing this I’ve felt completely different and better which leads me to been very grateful to those who have stuck by me and to those who wanted to hit me upside my head and pretend I didn’t¬†exists¬†to them. i’m stubborn, deal with it. Well this month I’ve made a real effort to see all the little things of life that bring joy to my heart, I found A LOT! ¬†The following are things and people I am much thankful for…

  1. The Gospel of Jesus Christ
  2. All the hard life’s lessons
  3. My dear family and friends (you know who you are)
  4. My little nieces and nephews (Aidan, Laneah, Belle, Emma, Claire, and the brand new addition baby Fox)
  5. My roommate’s snort when she laughs really hard, truly brings a huge smile to my face…too bad she doesn’t do it more often anymore
  6. My car that is still working
  7. Love notes from my friends in my current ward
  8. My bishopric and their wives
  9. A healthy body
  10. Hugs and kisses!!! My favorite
  11. The guidance of great examples and leaders
  12. Friends who love me even with all my faults-I have many, shh!
  13. My job and those select few (at work)who make me smile and laugh
  14. My mission comps, who I am still in contact with-they rock my socks off!
  15. FOOD!
  16. Faith, Endurance, Hope, Desire, Love, and Patience
  17. Dreams
  18. The emotional team support I have from certain people
  19. My long hair and brown sugar skin, lol
  20. Movies-they always seem to get me thinking
  21. Books-religious or worldly
  22. Photographs of people I love and care about
  23. Many fun adventures of the past 25 years and counting…
  24. My scriptures that I am able to read in my native tongue (Spanish) even though I understand a whole lot better in English ūüôā
  25. My patriarchal blessing which is my little preview of what may come if I chose to be
  26. To live in a well protective “Bubble”¬†college town
  27. The many ways to network and stay in contact with my people (yes I have my own people, called my family and friends-gotcha!) ūüôā
  28. The ability to play sports and get dirty when playing outside
  29. Babies, kids, children-that I now do love to hold, play games with, and babysit
  30. Travel and see old friends and family
  31. Dogs and cats
  32. All of my coworkers from this state of Utah whom have taught me many lessons
  33. Birthday hugs-big ones that left some bruises afterward-no biggy. Thank you Ben you made my birthday this year a million times better than ever before
  34. Cheesecake! Oh how much I love it, way better than chocolate
  35. The ability to do a childhood goal/dream…martial arts!
  36. To have been able to accomplish a lot in this past decade…I might not remember what I did but I’m sure people will remind me here and there
  37. Sun, Moon, Stars-how they always light the way in dark places
  38. All the seasons of the year-its a work of art that God has created for us
  39. The ability to get up (trials, errors, etc) when I fall and try again
  40. And finally the great Atonement of Jesus Christ! Because of his unselfish love, care, example, and sacrifice I am able to enjoy all of these things and follow in his foot steps and help others.

Yes, there is much, much more I am grateful for but in reality my list will never end…so I hope you said a silent prayer this past Thanksgiving day and thanked your Creator, Father, God who has giving you everything in life and only ask little of us. To be Christlike, (something I am still working on too) to comfort those who stand in need of comfort, fellowship, give hugs and kisses, talk with all your friends, love your parents(no matter how many you have) witness and testify of ¬†the truth, for the truth and only by the truth will you be free. Thank you to all who have support me this year and have never given up on me. Love you all!

Sunday experiment

Ok so every since I moved into my new ward I’ve decided to try something new. Making new friends is not my strong point and in this ward its been rough, not gonna lie but it has been a good challenge to say the least. In the middle of last semester I’ve decided to go to church early and sit towards the front of the room right smack in the middle of the row. Why? Because I can’t always depend on my roommates to come to church with me at the same time, let alone to sit next to me. They have their own friends in the ward and they are not obligated to sit next to me holding my hand like a little child. As the weeks, and months have gone by I have also tried to make more friends during the activities to bring success on Sundays’…I mean c’mon I wanted some sort of decent political results with these people. So here is the results….drum roll please….every Sunday I go sit by myself towards the front of the room right in the middle of the row. And every Sunday people come sit right next to me on both sides. SUCCESS!!! I don’t think or can’t remember of a time that I’ve sat alone on Sunday since I’ve started this project. I believe this goes to show that I am a decent person to sit by and talk to, given the opportunity. For those in my ward that read my blog, I thank you for your hand in friendship and only hope that together we can increase our friendship.

Martial Arts

I’m sad to inform you¬†that today I¬†quit the dojo, I didn’t have any other choice. I knew this day would come but I just pretended that I was blind. I love physical workouts and it can’t get any better than a heavy duty physical workout 3-4 times a week. How else do you think I lost a lot of weight, it really works.

Ever since¬†I was a kid, I always wanted to do Martial Arts. But due to financial issues and other life matters¬†I was always promised that I would be enrolled but it just never happened. Until I started living on my own. Only I and I alone (well sort of-a little help from God does make a difference too) can make my dreams, goals, and desires come true. Well now look at me, I quit but at least I did it like I always dreamed and wished. Didn’t get to finish my Agreement term but at least¬†I can say “yes, I did it.” When I finish, it will be probably around 10 months. That makes me happy, 10 months is a long time and lots of dedication and anyone that knows me knows that I am very dedicated once I put my mind to it.

For as long as I can remember, I have always¬†yearn for discipline. It¬†has always been a part of my life and will always be…hmm, I feel sorry for my future kids, if and when I have them. I’ve been told by many people that I have a very military mind set. Cool, I guess. Personally I just like to have order in my life. If that is broken or lost there are consequences, question marks, and sometimes fear. As much as I like having a plan, there is also room for flexibility…one cannot say this is it and there is no other way. I quote “if there is a will, there is a way”-Unknown. This is why I love anything with order in it, especially martial arts and the forces of the military. Discipline brings hard work, satisfaction, endurance, commitment, team work (when applied) and focus. All of these things are life’s teaching and learning ground. This is me,¬†this is what I will teach my children, this is how I will raise my house, and above all this is my life.

Will I ever go back and finish? I don’t know, one can only hope and dream. But who knows, maybe in the future, maybe when I’m rich and famous I’ll¬†go back. Until then, it was fun while it lasted. Just got to keep looking forward to the future and see what is in store. Yes, I’m sad but like I said before, discipline will always be in my life.

Amazing Grace by Leann Rimes

One day during my mission while tracking my mission comp and I started singing songs. I didn’t know the words to Amazing¬† Grace but she knew them and taught me the first line. It so happen that we hit a street that was a dead end and as we continued down the street snow piles were everywhere and and it was like a big wall of 5¬†tall deep¬†it¬†outline the street…so when I made her sing it out loud. Holy cow! The echo with her voice was amazing!!! I love it so much that I would even bug her to sing it to me before sleeping some nights. And now I miss her and its not the same but this song still comforts me and inspires me to live! Hope you enjoy it!