Things that really matter…

•November 30, 2009 • 1 Comment

…to me. This year for the month of November I was able to ponder just about every single day what I am thankful for or for whom. Since I’ve been home from my mission I’ve had nothing but countless blessings pour upon me…then after a while of free gifts(blessings) I learned that I needed to show Heavenly Father my gratitude…and so I am still trying too. I’ve had a new goal in these last couple of months to try and be positive about anything and everything. If I couldn’t then I would at least try to laugh it off, well let me tell you its been difficult but I haven’t given up yet. Since doing this I’ve felt completely different and better which leads me to been very grateful to those who have stuck by me and to those who wanted to hit me upside my head and pretend I didn’t exists to them. i’m stubborn, deal with it. Well this month I’ve made a real effort to see all the little things of life that bring joy to my heart, I found A LOT! The following are things and people I am much thankful for…

The Gospel of Jesus Christ
All the hard life’s lessons
My dear family and friends (you know who you are)
My little nieces and nephews (Aidan, Laneah, Belle, Emma, Claire, and the brand new addition baby Fox)
My roommate’s snort when she laughs really hard, truly brings a huge smile to my face…too bad she doesn’t do it more often anymore
My car that is still working
Love notes from my friends in my current ward
My bishopric and their wives
A healthy body
Hugs and kisses!!! My favorite
The guidance of great examples and leaders
Friends who love me even with all my faults-I have many, shh!
My job and those select few (at work)who make me smile and laugh
My mission comps, who I am still in contact with-they rock my socks off!
FOOD!
Faith, Endurance, Hope, Desire, Love, and Patience
Dreams
The emotional team support I have from certain people
My long hair and brown sugar skin, lol
Movies-they always seem to get me thinking
Books-religious or worldly
Photographs of people I love and care about
Many fun adventures of the past 25 years and counting…
My scriptures that I am able to read in my native tongue (Spanish) even though I understand a whole lot better in English
My patriarchal blessing which is my little preview of what may come if I chose to be
To live in a well protective “Bubble” college town
The many ways to network and stay in contact with my people (yes I have my own people, called my family and friends-gotcha!)
The ability to play sports and get dirty when playing outside
Babies, kids, children-that I now do love to hold, play games with, and babysit
Travel and see old friends and family
Dogs and cats
All of my coworkers from this state of Utah whom have taught me many lessons
Birthday hugs-big ones that left some bruises afterward-no biggy. Thank you Ben you made my birthday this year a million times better than ever before
Cheesecake! Oh how much I love it, way better than chocolate
The ability to do a childhood goal/dream…martial arts!
To have been able to accomplish a lot in this past decade…I might not remember what I did but I’m sure people will remind me here and there
Sun, Moon, Stars-how they always light the way in dark places
All the seasons of the year-its a work of art that God has created for us
The ability to get up (trials, errors, etc) when I fall and try again
And finally the great Atonement of Jesus Christ! Because of his unselfish love, care, example, and sacrifice I am able to enjoy all of these things and follow in his foot steps and help others.

Yes, there is much, much more I am grateful for but in reality my list will never end…so I hope you said a silent prayer this past Thanksgiving day and thanked your Creator, Father, God who has giving you everything in life and only ask little of us. To be Christlike, (something I am still working on too) to comfort those who stand in need of comfort, fellowship, give hugs and kisses, talk with all your friends, love your parents(no matter how many you have) witness and testify of the truth, for the truth and only by the truth will you be free. Thank you to all who have support me this year and have never given up on me. Love you all!

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I’ve served my time…480 hours

•November 8, 2009 • Leave a Comment

As of this past week I’ve completed my 480 hours at the agency for work. Yay! By law my job at the warehouse had to sign up the temp workers through a third party. I wanted to prove myself without going there…I waiting until the last possible day to go and sign up…other wise I would have finished my hours weeks ago. My own fault. Any who, rumor had it at work that my boss and one of the other guys were discussion the option of buying my contract out of the agency. Well, let me tell you…that made me feel special and like a piece of meat. Hahaha, in short I convinced myself that the company only wants me for my sweat. Big whoop! Well either way I love my job and I love most of my coworkers. I really do have lots of fun at work so I hope come Monday (tomorrow) I get hired full time. Otherwise I’m stuck without a job and then I will panic like no tomorrow. Keeping my fingers crossed…I hope my boss remembers about this tomorrow. Otherwise I belong to no one and that wouldn’t be so nice.

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Not just Monday’s anymore

•October 26, 2009 • 1 Comment

While at work I thought of this brilliant Idea. You know how everyone says, “oh crap its Monday” or “its Monday, its ok” and so on…people always or mostly bred Mondays because it’s the start of a new week or they just want to skip Monday altogether and move on to Tuesday. Well I’ve notice a pattern at work with “Mondays” it really isn’t all that bad, honest. For the past few Mondays now I’ve rushed into work to stay on top of things and continue to take care of business. Granted I have to eat brain food to get my brain to remember where I left off on Friday and so forth. As I did this normal routine (if you can call anything I do normal) my coworkers and I were laughing, throwing jokes left and right, flirting/playing hard to get, and some blank stares. Hahaha, I guess you had to be there for those. Any who, I decided…why do I have to act like the rest of the world and bred these Mondays when they come around. Instead I thought, lets call it “Crazy Monday”…why?

Here are the reasons I’ve come up with:

1. People are still in the “hang over” mood from parting the weekend

2. You talk to your coworkers, friends, schoolmates, etc…about what you did during the weekend

3. Which all leads to laughter and bucket loads of weird questions and stares

4. In my personal opinion I think we need one more day to get all the party bugs out of our system

So why not act as crazy as can be in work, school, home, church, etc? What’s the harm in that? Yes, there is a time for work and play. And I do agree when its time to get work done, let’s get it done…but we don’t have to be so serious about it. I spent most of my life serious, I don’t want to die an old bitter hag, I want to go with a smile on my face and know that I was able to bring some smiles into this world, to my friends and family. All in favor of “Crazy Monday” say Ay?

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A little boy named Aidan

•October 20, 2009 • 3 Comments

A couple of weeks ago as we were coming back from a reception I offered to hold Aidan while Pmac got the car seat back into his car for Aidan. We parked my car and I went to grab Aidan…poor little guy even tho he was sleeping I still told him that I was going to hold him so his dad can move the car seat over. Aidan put no fuss, and let me freely hold him for the time being. As I held Aidan he laid is head on my shoulder and put his arms around my neck to hold on.

Next thing I know I am completely speechless! This cute little boy has given me the greatest hope and desire that deep down inside my heart has been in slumber for many years. The feelings I felt while holding Aidan were so strong that it hit home FAST! Never have I ever felt this way about a child…such love, such happiness, such hope! I’ve never felt like a mother before or ever gotten close enough to the role until that night. A great sense of peace came over me and I kid you not I would have loved just to hold Aidan a little while longer just to be able to keep feeling that motherly sensation. Not sure if that’s the right word for it but you get my point. I won’t lie my heart broke a little when Pmac took him and put him in his car, but at least I got to experience something I never thought would be possible in my heart. Just for that minute and half I felt so much love for Aidan and for once my heart was completely full…full of love and all the right emotions a normal person should feel on a daily basis. Aidan, I owe you buddy.

You know no matter how many times I re-read this words just cannot capture the emotions I felt…its just not expressible. This gives no justice to Aidan or myself due to the fact that I just cannot express well enough how it felt that night. I want it back, I want those feelings back…yet I have to wait because I know its not on my time but on the Lord’s time. He will know when I am ready and I will freak out as usual but I do hope I don’t have to wait too long. Until then I will hold on to these feelings tight and pray that I don’t forget how it felt to almost be a mother…or the role of a mother.

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Decisions…

•October 15, 2009 • 1 Comment

after a night’s full of watery eyes, a huge headache and pouring my heart to my Father in Heaven I’ve decide to quit my job at the restaurant. I know I said I’ve sold my soul to the working force but I want it back and I will get it back one way or another. I am tired of not being able to social with my friends at regular after hours from work. I am tired of requesting days off from work just to hang out with my family when they are in town or when I want to visit other beautiful places. I have my rights as a human being and believe me I want them back, its part of the Constitution, its part of my life! Even tho I am not just supporting myself right now but I believe I will manage just as long as I keep my budget tight. I will stick to my word and execute my will to keep my sanity from all!

More to come…

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Feel the Love

•October 7, 2009 • Leave a Comment

I, of course got this as an email from a good friend of mine but you know what, its true! I just haven’t put my own thoughts on paper. So here is this lovely note that almost says how I feel about my dearest sisters, girlfriends, and mentors. Those of you know who you are…no need to highlight your name, but do know that I love ya tons and am grateful your in my life!

Much Love,

Roxy, your sister when you want.

I LOVE Being the kind of woman that when my feet hit the floor each morning the devil says~~
“Oh Crap, She’s up!”

cid:CFF8CA4445B540099826EC5A676DE951@IsiePC

Sister

Life is too short to wake up with regrets.

So love the people who treat you right.

Love the ones who don’t just because you

can.

Believe everything happens for a reason..

If you get a second chance, grab it with both

hands.

If it changes your life, let it.

Kiss slowly.

Forgive quickly.

God never said life would be easy.

He just promised it would be worth it.

Happy Sister’s Day!

I LOVE YA SISTA’!!!

Girlfriend and Sister’s Week

I am only as strong as the

chocolate I eat,

the hair spray I use and

the friends I have

.
To the cool women that have

touched my life.. Here’s to

you!

National Girlfriends Day

What would most of us do without our sisters, confidants and shopping, lunching, and traveling girls?
Let’s celebrate each other for each other’s sake!

TO MY GIRLFRIENDS!

Be Happy!

It is good be a woman.

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Responsibility

•September 23, 2009 • 1 Comment

In the last couple of month a lot has happen…too much to write about now. I have two jobs. One full daytime job and one part nighttime job. I work a lot so sue me! In a way I feel as if I have sold my soul to the working force and it looks like this time I won’t be getting it back.

Good news is that I FINALLY ran into my England mum at the post office last week and as we chatted for a few mins it just dawned on me! I have two jobs bcuz I am supporting my family, my love ones who need help. Regardless if its once in a while, a gas tank or an emergency it doesn’t matter to me anymore. I help them bcuz I love them and the good Lord upstairs knows that I’ve had my fair share of help. Its now my turn to pass it forward.

So why am I working two jobs bcuz I have enough life/determination to do this and help those I love. Its like I told my England mum, its great trainning for the future for when I have my own family. WAIT…did I just say that??? Ok that’s it, ya’ll can quote me on that, I want a HUSBAND, FAMILY and CHILDREN! Until then, I will keep pushing through all these rocks to support my family, my car, my bills, my household, and lastly my health if I’m still ticking at age 45.

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Auto Car Care…

•August 8, 2009 • Leave a Comment

When I opened my mail a few days ago I got this poem from my car guys. I couldn’t help laughing so hard and yes its a bit corky but who cares…its nice and sweet.

Dear Roxy,

When I think about the time we met,

My RPMs red line.

Your hands upon my steering wheel,

My belt securing your seat to mine.

But the honeymoon is unfortunately over,

Our relationship is starting to sputter.

But just take me in for some schedule maintenance,

And my pistons will once again flutter.

Now what can I say, you still drive me wild,

help me do the same for you my love.

A Firestone Complete Auto Care technician could surely save us,

Like a wrench wielding angel from above.

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Mexican Humor

•August 3, 2009 • 2 Comments

This isn’t the origanal photo with this message but its the closest I can find.

Please read with a “Mexican” accent

The Mexican Dictionary

BODYWASH: I can’t go to tha cantina tonite cuz no BODYWASH my kids. SHOULDER: My tia wanted 2 become a citizen but she didn’t know how to read so I SHOULDER. COCKATOO: My friend was in the bathroom & I told him 2 hurry cuz I had to go COCKATOO! SODAS: My vieja has big tetas & SODAS her sister. JUICY: Hey vato, I will roll the joint, & ju tell me if JUICY the cops! JUAREZ: My viejita slapped me & I said JUAREZ your darn problem! TISSUE: Hey vato if you don’t know how to do it, let me TISSUE how. HEATER: My lil sister started to choke…Perro my mom told me to HEATER in the back! BRIEF: Hey homes, my lady farted n the car & I couldn’t BRIEF! JULY: Ju tol me ju were going to tha store & JULY to me! Julyer MUSHROOM: Wen my familia gets n the car ….There’s not MUSHROOM left.LoL…PAZZ ET ON Ha ha! This was just too funny!

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The Bucket List

•August 1, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Last week my friend and I went to Salt Lake to find some furniture she was looking for. By the end of the night we cruised down 7600 St, and ended up at Hooters for some chicken wings. While we were there I was really excited because I’ve never been to Hooters…as I mention to my friend that this was my first time we started thinking of a punch of things she’s done but that I haven’t do to a lack of childhood. The brain storming continued and I said “we should make a “Bucket List” she loved the idea and her mind was literally way ahead of me for things to do. My only thing that I want to do is go Sky Diving, the rest is her ideas for me to do. I can’t wait until we complete our Bucket List. We are a team and we are going to enjoy this adventure! I do need to clarify that this list isn’t with the same purpose as it is in the movie. Our list has two meanings: For her its a death of her divorce that she is struggling with to complete and for me its a death of my childhood I never had. The way things happened in my life as a child prevented me from actually doing a lot fun things for a memorable childhood…so here is the list! As we do some of the things randomly I will put the date we do it to keep track what we’ve done. Let’s do it!

The Bucket List

1. Bike falls trail

2. Tube down Provo River

3. Hike Bridal Veil Falls

4. Visit all National Monuments

Cedar Breaks National Monument

Dinosaur National Monument

Grand Staircase National Monument

Hovenweep National Monument

Natural Bridges National Monument

Rainbow Bridge National Monument

Timpanogos Cave National Monument